It's been a month less a day since I have posted. I have often sat here thinking I should post something, that I have stuff to say, but I get stuck in the starting. What title? What should I start with? I don't want to make it too short, but when I write something long, it takes so much time!
Anyway, here I am.
The last couple of days, numerous people have asked when I was due. It wasn't even a question such as; "Are you pregnant?" but they had already made that leap and just cut to the chase.
I've been chuckling about it to myself because when I was fat, fat, fat, no one dared ask if I was pregnant. In fact I remember being 9 months pregnant telling people who were then surprised. They had assumed it was all fat. One lady at work said that if you were a woman, you could tell I was pregnant rather than just fat, but women didn't even venture into this territory.
Now, that I am more a normal size (I guess) people assume my belly is a baby not just a buddha.
To be honest, it's mainly a glob of skin. It stretches out like bat wings and flops around when I run. I am quite obsessive about getting plastic surgery to get it cut off. I still have about 40 lbs to lose in order to have a "normal BMI", but I often wonder how much my extra skin weighs? I want to find a place to put my scale where I can weigh my buddha belly to get an idea.
My upper thighs have a lot of skin too. So much skin in fact, that it's hard to get a good shave. I can't hold the skin tight enough for the razor to get any tracking. It's fine for now. I don't think anyone is interested in looking at my leg hair!
I'm heading in for my 9 month post op appointment probably next week. I will ask my doctor about getting the reconstructive surgery covered in the public system. My belly really does hang very low. In fact, I think it is still about as low as it was when I was my heaviest. It has just shrunk and deflated like a stretched out balloon. So, at this point, I don't think it is just vanity (although I'm sure there is some of that too.) but a health -mental?- issue. It is something I am willing to pay for like my WLS, but that wouldn't be possible for many years.
Like I said, I just passed my 9 month mark. I am down 136 lbs so far. It's really mind boggling. I only have 4 more pounds to go until my BMI is only *overweight*!
This month I have also had my 9th wedding anniversary and my birthday is in 2 days. I am getting old! You know, I always thought I would be in a different place when I was my age now. Oh well.
I'll give a shout out to my loyal followers -
Seph, I'm glad to read you again. I have been praying for you as you come to mind.
Anne Margaret, I hope you life will settle into everything you hope for.
bye! Hopefully it won't be a month 'til the next time.
I'll post my most recent update photos. You can compare them with the before pics earlier in my blog.
