Medication it is!
The last couple of weeks I have been depressed, but functional. I'd call it Blue.
Depression is nothing new to me. I've been on medication on and off for almost 20 years. This time, though, it's a bit different. I'm still able to do my tasks even if it is more difficult to get out of bed whereas previous times, I was almost completely unfunctional. a couple of years ago, I ended up taking over a month off of work. It's also different because I have had to give my only coping mechanism - overeating. I believe this is where this episode is coming from.
Online, there are lots of people who have had surgery who are on antidepressants and some of their surgeons make it a habit to prescribe to everyone. I'm a little reluctant to start again. I don't like taking medicine. But after talking with my psychologist, and my doctor and others on my favourite message board, I think I will start. Today, my mood is as sombre as ever. Even my husband has asked if he offended me because of how I was acting. Just quiet and non committal and perfunctory.
I haven't really even prayed about it. But I have thought about the question of Christians taking antidepressants. Of course, I'm not against it, but it just seems somehow that I should be trusting God to renew my mind and letting the Holy Spirit heal me. Hmm. (of course not having the concentration to pray is one of the symptoms of depression.)
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Hey Kristi, I think you are making a good decision and it has been well-thought out and you consulted with your friends and family and a medical professional. You also know that this doesn't mean forever, it just means for now until you are back on track again.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure what you mean about Christians on antidepressants. Seems to me, if none of us took medication for our ailments, we'd be a small group indeed.
Hang in there! :)
Seph, thanks for the comment. AND Thanks for being my first follower!!! YAY! I was writing out my thoughts about the Christian-antidepressant thing and it turned into a book - so I just made it a new post instead. Thanks again for your comment. It has helped me work out this idea even further.
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