It's been a month less a day since I have posted. I have often sat here thinking I should post something, that I have stuff to say, but I get stuck in the starting. What title? What should I start with? I don't want to make it too short, but when I write something long, it takes so much time!
Anyway, here I am.
The last couple of days, numerous people have asked when I was due. It wasn't even a question such as; "Are you pregnant?" but they had already made that leap and just cut to the chase.
I've been chuckling about it to myself because when I was fat, fat, fat, no one dared ask if I was pregnant. In fact I remember being 9 months pregnant telling people who were then surprised. They had assumed it was all fat. One lady at work said that if you were a woman, you could tell I was pregnant rather than just fat, but women didn't even venture into this territory.
Now, that I am more a normal size (I guess) people assume my belly is a baby not just a buddha.
To be honest, it's mainly a glob of skin. It stretches out like bat wings and flops around when I run. I am quite obsessive about getting plastic surgery to get it cut off. I still have about 40 lbs to lose in order to have a "normal BMI", but I often wonder how much my extra skin weighs? I want to find a place to put my scale where I can weigh my buddha belly to get an idea.
My upper thighs have a lot of skin too. So much skin in fact, that it's hard to get a good shave. I can't hold the skin tight enough for the razor to get any tracking. It's fine for now. I don't think anyone is interested in looking at my leg hair!
I'm heading in for my 9 month post op appointment probably next week. I will ask my doctor about getting the reconstructive surgery covered in the public system. My belly really does hang very low. In fact, I think it is still about as low as it was when I was my heaviest. It has just shrunk and deflated like a stretched out balloon. So, at this point, I don't think it is just vanity (although I'm sure there is some of that too.) but a health -mental?- issue. It is something I am willing to pay for like my WLS, but that wouldn't be possible for many years.
Like I said, I just passed my 9 month mark. I am down 136 lbs so far. It's really mind boggling. I only have 4 more pounds to go until my BMI is only *overweight*!
This month I have also had my 9th wedding anniversary and my birthday is in 2 days. I am getting old! You know, I always thought I would be in a different place when I was my age now. Oh well.
I'll give a shout out to my loyal followers -
Seph, I'm glad to read you again. I have been praying for you as you come to mind.
Anne Margaret, I hope you life will settle into everything you hope for.
bye! Hopefully it won't be a month 'til the next time.
I'll post my most recent update photos. You can compare them with the before pics earlier in my blog.
Arrived here by blog hopping tonight and wholey toledo do you look good!!
ReplyDeleteSo nine months and 136lbs? I haven't gone back and read too much yet, but I am assuming you had some sort of stomach surgery?
I am curious about doing something like that myself. I have lost 40lbs this year, but am still in the 280's. Long way to go!
Kristi, I think you look fantastic and anyone who thinks you're pregnant is obviously confused. No way you look pregnant.
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't hesitate to get any repair work done to my stomach. It also hangs. I think it is so sad to lose all that weight and still not feel confident in your own skin - such a terrible shame. Really!
I hope it works out for you. And thanks for the shout-out! It's nice to know people think of me. Thanks also for your prayers. :)
Thanks for your reply Kristi!
ReplyDeleteFor now, I am going to keep plugging away at what I am doing. I set myself a goal of 50lbs a year for three years- that was set in January of this year. I have lost 40 since then, so really I have nothing to be discouraged about!! Just wish I was at the end already.
Keep up your good work! I look forward to reading more.